The Suck-age continues....

Bad day today... have been working my gymnastic routine like nobody's business...CEO tells me-new carpeting and painting by March 1... bend over backwards to find contractors...get two bids...go thru purchasing and I quote..." These bids..um...aren't reputable enough"...have to tell CEO that I suck (even tho carpeting quote has come from folks who have done the White House and BWI)...am following guidelines given to me by boss, MUST go thru incompetent Purchasing Dept (who by the way doesn't know who the CEO of company is.. must explain to Head of Purchasing who CEO IS..this is funny, really)...am trying my hardest and have to tell CEO that what he wants can't happen...CEO responds with "it's OK what's the time fame from Purchasing Dept?"... respond with, God help me, "I don't know?"...do you have any idea how shitty I feel? My hands are tied and I feel like an idiot. I AM the Go To Girl and see I'm failing miserably, I am trying so hard and I can't make it work..I can make anything work and I can't manage to get this done...called contractors and tell them that I suck...bad day. Suspect that life underneath a rock would be good right about now. My suggestion, pull a crack head off the streets, make them some high ranking company official and roll with it baby, 'cause stick a fork in me, I'm done.